The Big "D" Word

Life has its seasons and change seems to be the only consistant thing in this world. I always hate to see a season end, but sometimes you can't help but to do what you know is right, no matter how difficult it is.

Robert and I were together for 11 years and married for 10. We had a lot of fun together and got along great usually. We were separated for almost 2 years so after a lot of thinking and evaluating I decided it was just time to let go. The past two years have been a roller coaster for us. We had a brand new baby when all hell broke loose at home and tho it has been difficult to adjust to being a single parent, I do my best to help the girls have a lot of fun, and try not to let life get us down when the rocks hit us in the face and knock us over. Robert has been really good to continue helping us out financially and he has consisantly visited the kids as well.

The divorce wasn't anything nasty or horrible...bittersweet as we discussed all of the details of the divorce and reminisced about the good times. But it is for the best that we ended things and hopefully we will both be able to move on and be happy in our separate lives.

It's really tough to let go of someone you have invested your entire life into and were once so madly in love with, especially after a whole decade and a year of engagement before that. We still get along great, just couldn't be together anymore. I still care about him and hope the best for him. I still love his family dearly and hope to be able to maintain friendships with all of them forever.

So it's officially final now and I just thought I would post a little message to tribute the past decade of our lives together. We have had many good times together, and brought two adorable, precious little girls into this world together. So much for happily ever after, but we will get through it no doubt! We gave it our best shot! There are way too many pictures to post, but here are a few family pictures over the years.

Trick or Treat!

We carved our pumpkins on Halloween day as a home schooling project. Leesie did hers without any help at all. I must say she did a fantastical job!! I had a little help carving mine, by Maddie. She is a really big helper! hahaha I spent the entire time very nervous that she would cut herself, but she did fine.
Then we got into our costumes...Leesie wanted to be "The Bride of Death" and we had a lot of fun coming up with her outfit. It was all stuff we already had, so yay, we didn't have to go spend $40 on a costume. hahaha She really got into characater too. I think I am going to have to get her into acting classes...she is so animated she could be her own cartoon. LOL
Maddie had several costume changes before we settled on this one. She has a really cute ladybug costume that would have looked so cute, but when I put it on her, she freaked out and wanted it off. So we tried "Little Miss America" in a beautiful dress, and she didn't want that either, so we ended up as a little cowgirl. She seemed to be ok with this one...hahaha She liked all the shiny pretty stuff on it. hahaha
Jessie (my lil sis) wanted to be a vampire. That was easy enough. She really played up the scary face thing. I tried to talk her out of those gloves to go with my costume, but she was being stingy. LOL hahaha She's growing up way too fast!
My mom and I joined Jason and Josh in the band that night and got a little crazy! hahaha (Got? Um....we are always a little crazy, especially on stage.) We had a lot of fun and rocked the house until the cows came home...acutally until the lights turned off and they kicked us out. LOL hahaha

Love one an "udder". Chelle made this costume for Jason to wear in the band several years ago, and since he went as a cowboy (which is not dressing up for him) this year, she decided to wear his cow costume and use the udder sack as a bag to hand candy out of to the kids. She even passed out milky ways....LOL hahaha So clever!!

Trunk or treating at the church in Roberts. Then we slipped over to relatives' homes and went trick or treating. We still have left over candy and it's over a week later...I know...I am horrible at keeping up with this blog. Sue me. I'm busy. LOL hahaha

And I went as a flapper girl from the roaring 20's. I even did the charleston on the dance floor when I didn't think anyone was watching. LOL Oooooooohhhhh!!!! Scary!!!

Spookfest Carnival

Halloween carnivals are always great fun. They always put on great ones in Rexburg that are full of fun and games for all. Even Maddie was big enough to play games with the big kids this year. She was especially funny trying to play halloween twister...hahaha!!! By the end of the night mommy was going "batty" from all the fun...hehehe

Leesie Turns 8!

It's hard to grasp how fast our little ones grow up before our eyes. It's like the song...turn around and they are walking, turn around and they are going out the door for their first day of school, turn around and they are dating, turn around and they are getting married and having babies of their own. I can barely stand the thought of my firstborn already being 8! I remember the day she was born........well, I was a little drugged up that day but I remember being in a lot of pain that day....LOL Now here she is 8 already! Wow!!! She is such a ham and so much fun!

She is such a sweet little girl! I am so proud of all of her accomplishments! She is so smart and funny and beautiful....she brings so much sunshine into our home. Happy Birthday Leesie!!!

(Every one of these cupcakes were gone in less than two hours of her blowing out her candles. I spent all morning making them from scratch.)

We had a "Fairy Fun" Birthday Party. Leesie has always wished she was a fairy, and since she could talk she has expressed a strong desire to have wings and fly like a fairy...she wanted a fairy birthday party and so once again on her birthday, mommy delivered. hahaha!

These are some of the party favors we had...I made the wands and fairy dust pouches. They turned out so cute! There were also wishing stones (flower shaped rocks) and fairy lip gloss rings. We sprinkled fairy dust on each guest while they made a wish, upon arrival at the enchanted fairy garden...

We played lots of fairy fun games...Pin the wings on the fairy...

Fairy Wing walk...they had to earn their fairy wings by walking through the enchanted fairy garden (the boys got glow in the dark swords, they were glad to not have to wear fairy wings). LOL And fairy freeze dance...um, we call it "freeze fart" instead of freeze dance now because when I stopped the music one time, it was dead silent and one of the girls farted really loud. hahaha We are so mature and ladylike at our house! LOL!!!We built fairy houses with all kinds of natural stuff...it was raining outside, so we had to do it indoors (a little messy, but it's nothing more than our every day messes with Hurricane Maddie...LOL). Just had to add this one of Maddie in here because she looked so cute in her fairy wings and dress!!

Leesie got some really fun birthday gifts. She got a really cool Disney collector carousel, also one of her favorite things, and lots of art supplies, some games, a webkins cow...from the look on her face here, I think she was pleased with her party and gifts. Yay!!! That makes it all worth it!